Stars are born of the unpretentious darkness. They are balls of gas and dust and nothingness. The only thing holding a star together is a wish, a will. that's all. same anyone else. only difference is a star knows this. 
and she is not afraid of the dark because she was born of it. 
My mother is dark. 
Her name is dark. 

My name is Sophia because I am her child.
and that is where they got my name
my father found it in mother's womb 
and thought yes I must make this child
because that is what my daddy does. 
he makes
so he made me 

To make mama smile again
and he made me in a little test tube in Texas 
and he said yes she's just right.

And he showed grandfather 
and grandfather laughed because he loved me

"She's just right" he said "She's perfect"
and grandmother loved me before I even left the lab.

They grew my grand daughter in a lab, Abuela said 

and mama she loved me before she even knew I was coming

and I was so so excited to come to be their baby.

and all my friends said it will hard and I said I don't care
I am tired of being alone.
I am tired of shining for no one but myself. 

and they said you will be Aquarius like your daddy and I said perfect.
I will be Aquarius like my daddy
and they said you will Scorpio just like your mama
and I said I don't like that very much, but I will try my best. 
and they smiled. 
and Hollywood, my cat was there, glowing like a hot red sun

and she said she'd come hang out with me when I got too sad.

she said they'd break my heart and 

I've never had a heart so small before  

but it's okay

because mothers always know 

and good mothers they allow and they love you from afar.

like a star

and good mothers they know when their baby is born different 
with fire and lightening 

Very Very Frightening

My mama is a good mama because she knows differenceDid you know?

The first person you ever love is your mother and that is why mothers always come first.

even when you don't want them to.

even when they pull your hair and yell.

or tell you to go to hell!

mother's come first.

and stars they come last 
so that sucks for me

a bit
but i'll survive

Did you know?

Outer space is so quiet